My mother was diagnosed with inflammatory breast cancer a year ago. This has been a challenging time for our whole family and we still don’t know what the outcome will be. It has been a deep emotional journey for me and in many ways it has been a blessings because it has pushed me deeper into my Kundalini yoga practice to find the strength, clarity and inner resources that I have needed at this time. I honestly don’t know how I would have managed this year without it.
Initially when I found out my mother had cancer, I went into a deep state of terror. My father was also declining and I had had a difficult 6 months with a sick child. It stirred up many feelings of desperation; wanting my mother to come to me and her not being there. I had often experienced that sense of falling that comes from needing to be emotionally held as a child and not getting it.